Ex-pected

Yea. Me and the cabbage boy has not been talking for more than a week already. I guessed everything between us is over. Sorry for not taking initiative. I'm tired.

"sheryl, just let the boys chase you." - Weizhe

hello ego friend

Its been a longgggg time since I last blogged here. Life the same, but people in my heart changed. In these few months, this special person come and go. The next one came and then broke my heart and left, again. Now, there's this new special person in my life.

We have so many similarities. We're both left handers, we've perfect eyesight. We even like the same kind of food. But things between us are really strange. When we met up, we seldom talk. We will talk to everyone else but not to each other. I don't know if it is that he doesn't bother to talk to me or he is shy like I do. Because from previous experiences, it is usually that the other person just doesn't want to talk to me because they knew that I like them and doesn't want to raise my hope.

However, we always ended up sitting beside/infront of each other naturally. Friends teased us but he doesn't react (maybe he cannot be bothered). Everyone knew that I like him. He also knew because I was very obvious. His friends told me that he is a passive boy and I have to initiate a lot. But I'm only a girl. I have my own ego as well.

Anyway, I bet this will be another fail relationship. It has always been like that for me and I'm already used to it. BAA.

So what happens when a Pisces met a Scorpio?

I have stay too far away from love. I have not been in a relationship for a long time. Its makes me wonder how do I even start it, what to do in it, and how to maintain it. It has been that long that I've already totally forgotten how and what to do with it.

I've realised that I've always been avoiding love because I know I'd always end up being hurt. I'm not confident of myself, at all. Even if the boy I like, likes me back, I'd still say no to a new relationship. I'm afraid.

I've seen too many break ups around me. Friends. Friend's friends. And the reasons are always expected. I've seen too many jerks around me as well. Guys who want a girl just cos she's pretty. Love has become superficial. Where has all the true love go to? When a guy just fall in love with a nice girl that he feels comfortable with, that he can talks to easily and that he wants to dote and to love her for who she is.

I've heard conversations that guys talk about, and it only makes me certain that guys are just disappointing and sometimes hopeless. But still, I've know a few nice guys around :)

The situations that I am seeing now is that the boy/girl is interested in the other partner because he/she is pretty/handsome. Then they tried to be together and then they'll realised that they are not suitable for each other.

I prefer a love that blossoms out from small chats, teasing, arguments. Because of all these, I fall in love with you.

Its like even if both of them are in silence, they'd still feel very comfortable with each other.

If you don't even understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

How cute

Failed

So I sorta kinda like you more than I had like originally planned and stuff...

Sweetness

Postsecret
"We aren't engaged but I set-up a new Gmail account with his last name."

Moving on

I’ve never understood the reasoning for someone to move on from a relationship. It's not like you are really going to move on - you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that one person every single day until it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, and then you have to remind yourself again.

Too many times we put our hearts on the line, hoping that this time, things are going to be different. And too many times, we play the waiting game because we are too afraid of making decisions.

You and Me

For the first time, in a long time, my life is real. It doesn’t matter who ends up with who, because in some unearthly way, it’s always gonna be you and me.
— Dawson’s Creek

Snow White

“What if prince charming never showed up? Would Snow White have slept in that glass coffin forever? Or would she have eventually woke up, spit out the apple, gotten a job, a health care package and a baby from her local neighborhood sperm bank? I couldn’t help but wonder… inside every confident, driven, single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?”
—
Sex and the City

3 Easiest ways to die:

1. Puff a cig daily
you'll die 10 years earlier.

2. Drink alcohol daily
you'll die 30 years earlier.

3. Love someone who doesn't love you back
you'll die daily

New definition

After a while, you will learnt the difference between holding hands and falling in love. kisses don't always mean something. Promises can be broken, and goodbyes are sometimes forever.

Fear

the thing is, no matter wat we tell the boy, he will never say anything, cause he's a guy, and guys likes to play games and makes life difficult. but in the end, he will be too late. ♥

Little secret

I keep the texts you send to me cuz I'm afraid that's all I'll have to remember you by.